Monday, February 6, 2012

perfection.

A week with you my boy is a week I couldn't fathom trading. You were so captivating to me and you mended a piece of me when I wasn't feeling myself. Days filled looking at the world through your eyes changed me in a small yet significant way.
Grahm I was nervous to be your care taker for a week to be honest, I wasn't sure you were going to like me. It took you just a few short hours and it was like I was your best friend.
Every moment with you was delightful in every sense of the word.
The moment your mom & dad left for their trip I broke down and cried, I felt overwhelmed that they would entrust me with you, their most beloved creation. I prayed so sincerely for the Lord's help and protection over you. I hadn't been a good place and didn't feel even worthy for my prayer to be answered but I pleaded that for your sake he would aid me if anything were to happen to you.
Our week consisted of a lot of Thomas The Train and Cars. I love how you were able to entertain yourself but yet you preferred me to play along most of the time. I felt accepted and apart of your little world when you would grab my hand and would say, "Meme try it "
Grahm I took you on little outings to the library, the pet store and you even let me hit up a few vintage stores without a fuss. You helped me pick out some great vintage finds and even laughed at me as I changed in and out of outfits jumping out in each dress to surprise you. At the pet store you didn't care too much about the puppies but you sure did like the birds & fishes, you couldn't get enough of them !!
You and I danced in the kitchen together to my music.. you'd try to mimic some of my moves and you fell once you got back up you tried doing it again haha. Night Night time was a breeze with you .. I would sing to you, read to you, pray with you and you'd go down without a tear. In the mornings when I would come into your room became my favorite part of the day because you would let me hold you for just a moment before I would get you ready. You would sink into my arms and I would just melt.
I got to spend my birthday with you and to celebrate we went out for some Idaho potato made donuts which you hand one taste and said, "yucky meme"
Every now and then we would get frustrated with each other a bit because I couldn't understand what you were trying to tell me and you didn't understand me. So I would just start to laugh when you'd get this puzzled look on your face it just cracked me up.
You little boy are perfection. You'll never be fully capable of knowing just how loved you are. I felt just a fraction of that love that your parents have for you and that our Heavenly Father has for you. Our week together is something I'll never forget. I don't just say that Grahm because it sounds promising and nice but because I wont. My heart aches for a little one of my own and to have that all encompassing love that my brother Eric & your mother Dallas have. So thank you for refreshing my memory of what I want to strive for and the kind of mother I want to be. I pray that one day I can be blessed with a little boy as perfect as you.
Your aunt meme loves you very much because you loved me so effortlessly back.

2 comments:

::dallas:: said...

im glad you were able to spend some time with my sweetie! for days after we got home he would randomly ask about you, wheres mimi! so he must have really loved spending time with you!

Erika Sullivan said...

How sweet Chelle. This post made me tear up. You are an awesome Aunt.